Please Have A Heart, Not Made Of Steel

After reading an article on a local newspaper recently, I went to visited a photo exhibition and left the place with a deep impact on my mental state. And I'm feeling kind of bad for posting up this so late, as the exhibition is going to end soon.

Award-winning photojournalist Nick Danziger visited eight of the world's poorest countries and captured their daily lives, thoughts and problems they faces. Below are some informations and photos from the exhibiton, and these photos really means much more than a thousand words to me. Hope you feel the same way too.

If you are interested in contributing to help the suffering people, or want to adopt a less fortunate children, please visit World Vision, Singapore for more details. Your help really means a lot to them.



'eight - forty stories, eight goals, one world'
Dates : 7 - 30 April 2006
Venue: Photographic Society of Singapore
30 Selegie Road, Selegie Arts Centre Singapore 180030

Available for public viewing from 9am to 5:30pm daily





Ayaz's father developed a chronic cough and was admitted to a TB clinic. Shortly after, he died of AIDS. Ayaz is no longer in school as he needs to support his family. Currently, 40 million people worldwide are living with HIV/AIDS, and 95% of these lives in the world's poorest countries.

Abbas, 15, has worked in the mines for three years. He works from six am until seven pm, seven days a week, having only two days off annually. Although his village is 12 kilometres from the mine he hasn't been home since he arrived. About a year ago, his boss fell down the hole and died. "I'm not sure how old he was. I was afraid to go down the mineshaft after that happened. But I have to earn money, so I go down."

Rakia, and her daughter live in a tiny straw hut. Rakia is an orphan and is living in on less than 60 pence a day. "There is nothing to eat here," says Rakia. "I borrow food from neighbours. My daughter and I do not eat everyday, we did not eat yesterday and I have nothing to give my daughter tonight."

A New Beginning

In case you guys haven't notice or blind enough, I'd just change the template of my blog and added in some new features like tagboards and such. Took me a whole afternoon to change this whole thing. I mean it's not that hard or anything, I just had a hard time editting the template to give it a more gothic, old and mystic feel. But in the end I gave up as the effects was not done up to my expectations. And now I'm stuck with a english version of Sadako (The Ring...) right here, but I'm ok with it. As least it's more dark and gothic than my previous one. And this one is more 'me'.

Caz, thank a lot for the template.

"Irony..."

Hi, My Name Is...

Perfect:
A) Being without defect or blemish. (Eg; A perfect specimen)
B) Completely corresponding to a description, standard, or type. (Eg: A perfect circle; a perfect gentleman)

Wound:
A) A physical injury to the body consisting of a laceration or breaking of the skin or mucous membrane. (Eg; A gunshot wound)
B) A mental or emotional hurt or blow.

Wounds are made to feel hurt, experience pain and the feeling of adrenaline rushing in the body. Therefore symptoms like shivering, cold sweat, sense of numbness, blur visions or more; may occur for life threatening and/or deep wounds.

In a practical, realistic situation or event, a wound will never be without defect. For wounds are not meant to be perfect. A perfect wound does not exist at all. Without defects, no impurities, undiluted... it's totally contrast to something that causes pain, hurt and discomfort feelings to any individual.

The name represents contrast feelings and mental state of myself in my daily life. Strong and vunerable, kind and evil, peace and destruction, hope and despair. Yes, I'm a complex character.

Ha! And you thought I just randomly choose my nick without thinking.

Thought of the day: Why use your right hand and reach behind your head to scratch the itch on your left cheek, when you can just use your bloody left hand to scratch the same itch???

MYOB

Just came back from a gathering with some friends, ABC and I was taking the train back when he asked me this question.

ABC: "So how's you and your girlfriend coming along??"

I'm puzzled and ask ABC where in the hell did he got that information from.

ABC: "Oh just now before you reach, KB told me and the gang that you are seeing someone." After further asking from ABC, I found out that KB saw me with a girl laughing and joking at a mall few weeks back.

Here we go again, someone who knew somebody saw me with someone and assumed something.

No offense here ABC and KB, but don't you think you can ask me about this just now while we are still together?? Instead now I got some people assuming something and speculate on their own about what is going on with my life. Why?? Is your life too dull and boring you need to came up with conclusion about me, so that you guys can talk about it during your regular relax sessions at the coffeeshop without moi??

Saw me with a girl at a mall means that's my girlfriend huh?? Then what happens if you caught me with my pants down in the toilet?? That I just had an orgy in the cubicle with some guys?? I really don't understand it dude, that you all can acted like nothing happened during the gathering just now, but thinking out your own theories about me, without me. Since you guys are so good at it, why not quit your jobs and become PIs. At least for once you will enjoy your job.

I keep my personal life private for a reason. Because it's personal and I don't need any more rumours in my life. You want anything from me?? You can just jolly well asked me.

Oh ya in case you all are going to scratch your heads till it bleeds about whom that girl was. That's my cousin, dammit.

Fucked Up

I know life is not fucking fair,

it never was to me.

Feeling so fucked up now,

for all the things happening.

Why can't people just stop hurting each other,

even without visible swords.

Why can't we just embraces each other,

though we're having different thoughts.

What you say might be right for you,

but it may not be for me.

And sometimes words can be real deadly,

more poisonous than a bee.

To see the fucking world with sadness,

I was brought up to be.

I hope this will end real soon,

right now I'll wait and bleed.

I don't have a choice for coming here,

I can't choose not to breathe.

If I had a choice to turn back time,

I rather choose not to live.

Fuck it all...

-perfectwound

Don't Look Back In Anger

Been thinking about my New Year resolutions for 2006 just now, and I'm really amaze at how much efforts and time I had spent for the past four months just to fulfill them...practically zero~!! ......Ok ok, there's a bit of effort here and there, and I'm not just saying this so that I will look good in front of you guys the next time I see you. (Ya rite~!! People who really know me can sense the bullshit in the sentence all the way from their places)

* Change my bad temper
It's been quite a while since I'd taken a knife and poke someone's heart with it (But that don't mean that you can try me, dammit). I always hate it when I lost my temper and feeling guilty later when I cool down. I'd try stuffs like deep breath, be on my own for a while, and counting from one to ten. Hell, at one point I even try counting sheeps. But the best way for me is to tell myself to let it go and think happy thoughts (like happy moments with my friends, funny movie scenes, beating up small kids...etc). And I'm glad that this resolution is almost 90% fulfilled. But the beast is still in me somewhere, and you people better don't try to unleash it.

*Quit smoking

I'm almost half way there to fulfill this, but I've been smoking more than usual for this year. But I still got more than half a year for me to quit (phew...thanks to the half empty and half full theory), so I still got all the time I need.

*Build up my body like Keanu Reeves in "The Matrix"

Been neglecting my workout at the gym due to hectic work schedules for the past two months, and my abs had since becoming more "concentrated" and they will form a "merger" soon if I don't do something about it fast...and I mean real FAST. But I have confidence in my abilities so meanwhile I'm still got 70% to fulfill for this resolution.

Everyone have things they wanted in their life. Hope you can reach your goals by your deadline, as long as they don't involve me being hurt. Enjoy.

"Venom"

Days Of My Life

Haven't been blogging decently since my trip to Phuket, guess I'll do it now in a new and simple style.

*Been walking around my neighbourhood last night, and noticed cats in the streets where ever I walked. Chances are they belong to the same families, with the horny male cats banging here and there. Think I need to get a dog soon.

*Was supposed to visit the gym today, but woke up at 12pm. The mind is willing, the flesh is weak, and I have a bad hair day.

*Watched "The Inside Man" in the afternoon. Good show but I still can't understand why they need to censored all the swear words to give the show a PG rating. If they want to target a bigger audiences like secondary school kids, it's fine with me. But think they can hear more vulgar words from the uncles in your neighbourhood coffee shop regarding everyone mothers or private parts, then in the movies.

*Just bought a new PS2 game "Black", but found out that I can't play due to some stupid problems. A PS2 that can't detect a PS2 game is as good as a toilet bowl that you can't do your business in...useless and taking up space.

*Just finish downloading one of my favourite Marilyn Manson music video "Sweet Dreams", and found out that I had already download it before...I'm getting forgetful.

*It has not been rainning today, which is good. More and more people are getting sick due to the weather these few weeks. Which means it's easier for sick people to get MCs, and harder for me to fake it.

*Recently my sister told me this after attending some health seminar, sleeping with the lights on will cause white hair. Where is the logic?? If I sleep with a brown paper bag covering the lights does that means I don't need to dye my hair brown ever again??

*Tomorrow will be another day. Enjoy yours.

My Old Man

(Sing along to the tune of "This Old Man", come on kids...it's fun~!!!!)

This old man, he played one
He don't like me playing the drum
With a knick-knack paddywhack, give the man a bone
This old man came rolling home

This old man, he played two
He put thumptacks in my shoes
With a knick-knack paddywhack, give the man a bone
This old man came rolling home

This old man, he played three
He likes me to bow down to his knees
With a knick-knack paddywhack, give the man a bone
This old man came rolling home

This old man, he played four
He liked to "BANG BANG" on my door
With a knick-knack paddywhack, give the man a bone
This old man came rolling home

This old man, he played five
He likes to scold me while he's still alive
With a knick-knack paddywhack, give the man a bone
This old man came rolling home

This old man, he played six
He used to beat me with a stick (a cane, that is)
With a knick-knack paddywhack, give the man a bone
This old man came rolling home

This old man, he played seven
I'll celebrate the day he's in heaven
With a knick-knack paddywhack, give the man a bone
This old man came rolling home

This old man, he played eight
He tried to throw me out of the gate
With a knick-knack paddywhack, give the man a bone
This old man came rolling home

This old man, he played nine
One of these days i'll break his spine
With a knick-knack paddywhack, give the man a bone
This old man came rolling home

This old man, he played ten
We start to quarrel once again
With a knick-knack paddywhack, JUST GIVE THE MAN A FUCKING BONE~!!
THIS OLD MAN BETTER DON'T COME HOME~!! DAMN IT~!!

Don't know why people likes to harm or hurt their love ones. I hate my father and that's the truth (sorry sis...). They think they are the kings of the house. But actually they are cowards on the inside. Damn MCPs...

P.S. The song was edited to suit the mood for the day and possible comical effects, and the incidents mentioned above was real up to the knowledge of the owner of this blog, no matter how hards he tries to denied it. No animals or any individuals was harmed for making this song possible.

Goodbye My Lover

Don't really know why...but I like this song for quite a while. This is totally different from all the rock songs that I knew.(Damn it man... I'm getting softer.)
Dedicated this to my Brother, and others whom never heard this song before.

James Blunt - Goodbye My Lover

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.